For a long time, Lady Gaga has always wanted to become a mother. Ironically, she was ʀ*ᴘᴇᴅ by a producer until she became pregnant at the age of 19 and then ᴀʙᴀɴᴅᴏɴᴇᴅ on a street corner near her parents’ house.

How cruel: Lady Gaga says record producer ʀᴀᴘᴇᴅ her at 19 and ‘dropped her off pregnant on a street corner’

Pop star said long-lasting trauma of experiences led to a ‘total psychotic break’ years later

Lady Gaga has revealed that she was ʀᴀᴘᴇᴅ at 19 by a music producer who “dropped [her] off pregnant on a corner” following months of abuse.

The pop star and Oscar winner spoke through tears as she recalled her trauma during an appearance on The Me You Can’t See, a new mental-health docuseries starring and co-created by Prince Harry and Oprah Winfrey.

In the show’s first episode, Gaga says that she has self-harmed since she was “really young” and that many of her mental health struggles stem from trauma she experienced as an aspiring musician.

“I was 19 years old and I was working in the business and a producer said to me, ‘Take your clothes off’,” Gaga remembers. “I said no, and I left, and they told me they were gonna burn all my music. And they didn’t stop… they didn’t stop asking me and I just froze and I just… I don’t even remember.”

As she broke down in tears, Gaga explained that she will never name the producer in question.

“I understand this #MeToo movement, I understand that some people feel really comfortable with this, and I do not,” she continued. “I do not ever want to face that person again. This system is so abusive, it’s so dangerous.”

Gaga added that, years later, she experienced a “total psychotic break” and was in an “ultra state of paranoia” that led her to cancel numerous dates of a world tour. She then realised it was resurfaced trauma from her sᴇxᴜᴀʟ abuse.

“I [couldn’t] feel my own body,” she recalled. “First I felt full-on pain, then I felt numb, and then I was sick for weeks after. I realised that it was the same pain that I felt when the person who ʀᴀᴘᴇᴅ me dropped me off pregnant on a corner [by] my parent’s house, because I was vomiting and sick. Because I had been being abused, and I was locked away in a studio for months.”

Lady Gaga breaks down in tears in Apple TV+’s The Me You Can’t See
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Gaga said that it took her two and a half years to recover, but that it takes just “getting triggered once” for her to slip back into feelings of physical and emotional pain.

Gaga is one of a number of well-known faces to take part in The Me You Can’t See, which The Independent has called “powerful but frustratingly unambitious”.

The show, which also features Winfrey, Prince Harry and Glenn Close, is streaming on Apple TV+ from today (21 May).

Speaking to the magazine, the 34-year-old singer said she has wanted to prioritize starting a family since falling in love with businessman Michael Polansky.

Recently, in the May issue of InStyle magazine, Lady Gaga opened up about her life after dating her businessman boyfriend Michael Polansky. The A Star Is Born actress said, “I have to say that ever since I fell in love with him, I really wanted to get married. I’m hoping I’ll have a baby soon. Having children is definitely extraordinary and wonderful.”

Lady Gaga also revealed more about her future plans. Vocalist Shallow said she will devote more time to music and film and continue to participate in charity work.

Lady Gaga is happy with her new boyfriend.

In particular, Lady Gaga said she will support doctors and the medical industry in researching diseases. Recently, owner Shallow and Global Citizen have raised $ 35 million to support people against the Covid-19 pandemic.

Lady Gaga on the cover of InStyle magazine’s May 2020 issue.

Also in an interview with InStyle, the singer who has won many Grammy Awards also opened up about suffering from depression. “Everywhere I go, I see my picture in the newspaper. Many people think they know me well, but they don’t. I feel hurt when I receive rude comments.”

Currently, Lady Gaga continues to prepare for her upcoming album Chromatica. However, the release schedule of the American star’s 6th album has not yet had a specific date due to the impact of the nCoV epidemic.

In terms of romance, Lady Gaga is happy with Michael Polansky. The singer, born in 1986, went public with her boyfriend in February 2020. The two appeared together at the Super Bowl music party at Hard Rock Stadium in Miami, USA.

Previously, Lady Gaga and Michael Polansky were reportedly dating since early 2020, after Lady Gaga was spotted getting close to Polansky during a New Year’s Eve party in Las Vegas. Recently, the Always Remember Us This Way singer also often shared intimate photos with her boyfriend as they self-quarantined together at their home amid the Covid-19 epidemic.